The endless loop of scrolling

Dear stranger,

There's a nagging fear that lingers in the back of my mind: what if one day I wake up and realize that I've squandered countless hours of my life mindlessly scrolling through social media and consuming endless online content?

The thought of losing precious time—hours, days, or even years—to mesmerizing images, fleeting videos, and the relentless stream of updates fills me with anxiety.

Yet, despite this fear, I find it incredibly challenging to break free from my devices.

Every time I unlock my phone or open my laptop, I feel an irresistible pull back into the world of social media, news articles, and entertainment that often leaves me feeling hollow.

Scrolling has become almost automatic, like a ritual woven into the fabric of my daily routine—one that I can’t seem to escape. I recognize the contradiction in my actions; I worry about the impact of this habit, yet I keep gravitating toward it.

This internal tug-of-war between my desire for a more meaningful existence and the alluring distraction of digital content creates a complex emotional struggle that I navigate each and every day.

I hope one day I will up and snap out of it.

-Blue